Eating my emotions

Here I am, slobbed out on the sofa, with an empty bag of Chinese on my lap, questioning why I had to eat it all and why I have no sense of self control, in (I’m not proud to say it) the pjs I’ve been wearing all weekend.

Why is it when we are upset sometimes we just have to eat our feelings? Gotta say it is a great way to fill the void sometimes and after a very long and painful day I just want to treat myself by shovelling food into my face like there is no tomorrow. Sometimes it’s good to give what your heart needs and not just your stomach.

So how are we meant to know when emotional eating becomes a problem?

  • If you feel guilty/shame after eating
  • If your hunger isn’t satiated once you’re full
  • If your eating mindlessly
  • If you are in a cycle of eating certain foods to fill a void/making you feel better whenever anything goes wrong
  • If you feel like it is a problem

Now is emotional eating a bad thing… meh who am I to say anything but I’ve been trying to think of ways to make myself feel better rather than eating all of my feelings and thought I would share them with you all. How do you take care of yourself?

  • Speak to someone
  • Watch a movie (depending on your mood- don’t be a masochist like me and watch a romcom when you’ve been left on read…)
  • Play with your dog (or cat if you have one)
  • Read a book
  • Run a bath
  • Light a candle
  • Go for a walk
  • Dance to a song
  • Sing as loud as you can in the shower (hopefully not so loud your housemates thinks you are drowning a cat)
  • Make a cup of tea (god I’m so British)
  • Wrap up in a blanket
  • Watch a comedy- laughter=endorphins=improved mood
  • Be creative
  • Write a blog about emotional eating like this idiot 🙄

Sometimes it is okay to just have one of those days where you do nothing but shovel shit into your face to make you feel better. That’s literally all I’ve been doing for the past 7 hours and tbh there’s no other way I would’ve wanted to spend those 7 hours. This day does not define me or you. Tomorrow is a new day with new possibilities for disappointment!

Grumpy Girl Traveller Series: 7 ways to make the most of your New Years Eve

First of the Grumpy Girl Traveller Series:

Can you believe it is 2019 already? It’s unbelievable… I’m still writing that it’s 2014. It will always be 2014 in my eyes. Donald Trump wasn’t in office. I was younger. Slimmer. I was still an asshole. The world was brighter.

To mark the end of the year coming far too quickly I went to Vienna to get away for the New Years celebrations as I hate how repetitive New Years Eve is at home- go out to a house party or a club and spend far too much money and end up only having a mediocre night at best. Whilst I was researching places to go in Vienna and things to do I found that a lot of the recommendations on the internet were for mainly the Christmas period and didn’t focus too much on New Years. So I thought I would write up my experiences and recommendations in a blog post to give people some ideas for New Years Eve 2015 2019.

Please feel free to add any suggestions you have in the comment section as I’d love to read them!

The streets of Vienna are paved with culture, the streets of other cities with asphalt

– Karl Kraus

Now I have to preface this list with although Vienna is absolutely stunning in the winter months due to the lights that can be found on almost every street, a lot of tours etc only run in the summer. Also visiting Schonbrunn Palace gardens needs to be done in the summer to do the beautiful gardens justice.

Strap on your butts as I can tell this is going to be a long one.

Here we go:

  1. Stay at an AirBnB

This will save you at least ÂŁ100 per night, especially if you pick an apartment that is slightly outside of the city centre.

We stayed at a lovely AirBnB in Rögerstrasse, just 10 minutes outside of the city centre. As you can see it’s a stunning little 2 bed flat and really fulfilled all of our needs.

2. Go view all the Christmas lights (I know I said I wouldn’t mention Christmas but I couldn’t resist)

I’ll just leave the pictures here to speak for themselves.


3. Go to one of the Gala Ball’s

The most expensive of all the balls would be at Schonbrunn Palace, however the Sylvester Ball at the Rathaus (city hall) is much more reasonable and even basic entry tickets include all inclusive drinks (which I hated myself for the next day), however you may be places (like we were) in the accompanying wing as this is a very popular event.

At midnight we all go out on to the balcony with a glass of (free) sparkling wine and watch the countdown and fireworks over hundreds of cheering people in the square below. You also get to witness classic Viennese waltz’s and a mixture of modern and classical music, such as Johann Strauss II’s Blue Danube.

The only pictures I took I decided when in a slightly intoxicated state would look really edgy in black and white and so you can’t actually see anything. Because I am an idiot when drunk and sober.

So here are my super edgy pics:

God I’m good at this blogging malarkey!

But seriously this was one of the best experiences I’ve ever had so I cannot recommend it enough. (If someone wants to pay me to recommend it more I will try my best!) (haha seriously pay me)

4. Visit Cafe Central and watch the snowfall outside (but beware of the wait)

Cafe Central’s popularity speaks for itself

A revolutionary (Trotsky), a psychoanalyst (Freud), several writers and poets (including Polgar, Zweig and Altenberg) and an architect (Loos) walked into a cafĂ©. What sounds like the start of a joke was an everyday occurrence at CafĂ© Central (est. 1876). Over coffee, cake and the odd cigar, some of the greatest poets, philosophers and – it has to be said – storytellers the world has ever seen, got together in Vienna’s most attractive coffeehouse.

with its high gothic ceilings it’s really a sight not to be missed. Also it has such a wide cake collection! I tried to eat through them all but failed miserably and just ended up in a corner cradling the words largest food baby and hating myself for having eyes bigger than my stomach.

However, like the rest of the popular cafe’s in Vienna there is normally always a queue to get in. We agreed that we would queue for 20 minutes however this turned more in to 45 minutes. Luckily the decor and food made up for it once inside. I would definitely go again despite the queue. (I know I’m British and we’re meant to be good at queuing but I am not a good queuer) (is queuer even a word? I’ve said it too many times in my head now it doesn’t seem real anymore.)

Cafe Central exterior
Cafe Central interior
Schnitzel with amazing cheesy potatoes

5. Tour the city (but bring an umbrella just in case)

Or just check the weather. Don’t be like me walking round in a coat that’s certainly not waterproof with no hood and no umbrella. The trifecta of stupid.

There are a multitude of tours that you can choose from whether it’s a 7 hour walking tour, 2 hour walking tour, horse and carriage tour, or the hop on and hop off buses. I prefer the longer tours myself as you get a real immersive experience in the city and the culture but go with whatever floats your boat.

What’s that I hear?

You want more black and white photos of Vienna? Well alrighty then.

Opera house
The Golden Cabbage

St Stephan’s Cathedral

Top floor of Vienna Aquarium

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6. Visit Loca for an incredible 6-course meal

Simply put. It’s simply beautiful. Showcasing the best Vienna has to offer.

Make sure to email them to get a reservation!


I know I know it’s Hungarian. BUT. Because Vienna is so close to Budapest they have great goulash here! Just eat it!

That’s everything from me (phew). Thank all those of you who stuck around to the bitter end!

Have a great week!

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What are Festive Blues?

It’s finally come time to admit it: I suffer from festive blues.

By no means am I saying that I’m a Scrooge shouting Bah Humbug at carol singers or at children skipping on their merry way to a nativity play.

However around Christmas I do become more depressed and far more snappy with people. No matter how much I want to be on my own sometimes, I believe we should be more open with how we are feeling during this time of year because it’s a good reminder that we aren’t alone and these feelings are only temporary.

What are the festive blues:

The holiday season can trigger depression or depression-like symptoms for a number of reasons:

  • economic circumstances,
  • stress,
  • life situation (break up, death of a loved one),
  • family dysfunction,
  • less sunlight,
  • Unrealistic expectations (comparing self to others)
  • Alcohol intake
  • change in diet and routine etc.

I think it’s key to remember that a lot more people are affected during the festive season than we realise. None of us are alone in these feelings but we all have our individual ways of coping.


  • Feelings of loneliness
  • Fatigue
  • Sadness
  • Tension
  • Lashing out
  • Sense of loss
  • Anxiety
  • Feelings of being left out

The cause of my festive blues:

This is going to make me sound like a total millennial but the major cause for my holiday blues is:

  • having very high expectations for the picture-perfect festive season and comparing my Christmas to previous years and to others.

When reality inevitably doesn’t meet my expectations, I inevitably don’t feel good. Nothing will ever be good enough.

How to combat festive blues:

  • Try and stay in the present- turn off your phone and stop comparing
  • Have some alone time- don’t isolate yourself but remember to look after yourself especially if you are burning the candle at both ends
  • Don’t compare your insides to another person’s outsides
  • Set an end of year goal
  • Start a gratitude journal
  • Give back
  • Plan a getaway
  • Speak to someone
  • Make sure you’re getting enough sleep
  • Exercise
  • Set reasonable expectations for the holiday season
  • Delete instagram temporarily

Have you experienced Festive Blues? How did you combat it?

Week 2 of the #MHchallenge recap: how to find time in your busy day

I’m going to be perfectly honest here… I haven’t done any of the challenges in the #MHchallenge last week. I didn’t even try. My mind is focused on work and I currently don’t have the time at the moment to even try and focus on something else. Mainly because by the time I get home I’m exhausted. I genuinely didn’t even have the energy to write this I just forced myself.

Can someone tell me how you find time to do things for yourself when the majority of your day is spent at work?

So how do you find time in your day when you’re busy: well the only answer I’ve got so far is… you don’t.

However I will try this week (and I mean actually try) to make an effort and do the daily challenges because they won’t make me feel worse it’s just finding the time to do it. And I’m more than positive I have the time. I just need to get off my arse and do something rather than nothing. Which is easier said than done for me. Because I’m a very lethargic individual- I always have been.

My goals for week 3:

  • To actually do some of the challenges
  • Walk 5,000 steps
  • Actually go to the gym at least once
  • Eat healthily
  • Meal prep at least once this week- as I’m spending too much money on food from M&S and Sainsbury’s these past few weeks
  • Finally send back the things I’ve needed to return for the past 3 weeks

Day 8 of the #MHchallenge

This week has been a challenging but enlightening one, it quickly turned into an all round shit show but at least the week ended on a good note with a haircut and dye. But it has taught me a few things about coming in to week two so here are my goals for the upcoming week:

  • Walk 10,000 5,000 steps a day (my goal of 10,000 steps a day last week was just completely unrealistic so I thought I’d start conservatively and then work my way up)
  • Go to the gym 3 times this week
  • Eat more healthily
  • Blog every day once a week (I found blogging every single day too much hard work especially when I was tired hence why I didn’t manage to blog everyday, so it’ll be easier for me to consolidate it all into one blog post)

What day is it again?


This really couldn’t be going any worse for me. Yesterday I had to leave work early because I had one of the worst migraines I’ve had in a very long while. It was so bad that I almost threw up several times on the way home. So I left work at 4pm. Got home at 6pm. Fell asleep at 7pm. Woke up at 6am. To be honest this was the first time I’ve woken up and felt well rested but that might be due to getting over 10 hours sleep.

Luckily my migraine wasn’t there when I woke up but I’ve just felt a bit weak and sick for the majority of the day.

To be honest, I hate that my adherence to the #MHchallenge has been shockingly shit but eh shit happens.

I’m on my way back home from work now and I will get myself a KFC and will watch a few episodes of Peep Show and then will go to bed as I have to get up reasonably early tomorrow and I’m already pretty tired.

Day 3 of #MHchallenge: what to do if you’re having a bad day

I succeeded in detoxing from social media for the majority of last night. I would out of habit click on to an app but then I’d consciously tell myself no and would close it again! I will try to do this more often as this is a good habit to get into.

But today I’m just having one of those days where everything doesn’t go right. Since 11am I’ve had a migraine and no pain relievers have worked. None of the people I was trying to speak were in so it just felt like a waste of a day. That’s the wonders of working in sales though. Sometimes you’ll have good days and sometimes you’ll have bad. Just trying to work my arse off to smash my quota and prove myself at this company purely for my own pride. I’ve realised that I love being complimented by people on things that I’ve done well. It’s one of the things that really keeps me going. And it really helps when even if you’re having a subjectively bad day people are reminding you of all the things that went well. Also is it just me or does it feel like autumn is already here? Like suddenly it’s all cold and breezy!? Waiting for those leaves to start falling so I can get out my autumnal themed candles and start planning for Halloween.

Day 3 of the #MHchallenge clearly could have gone a little better however I didn’t allow myself to give up and just go to bed as soon as I got home (although I was really tempted to). I ate my dinner and then I decided to do something that I’ve been putting off for ages.

So today I made: Soap

I bought myself a soap making kit last month because I like making things and it tends to help me feel better but I never got around to doing anything with it. So clearly this was a good excuses to get stuck in and just do it. The kit came with everything fragrances, dried flowers, dye, soap base, bees wax, and honey. It was pretty good for a beginner however I next time I will just buy my own supplies and make it up as I go along as I think I will enjoy it money doing it like that rather than following it like a recipe. I will upload a picture tomorrow of what they look like set and out of the moulds.

Do you have any recommendations on what I could make next? Or your favourite soap making combinations? What do you do to make yourself feel better after having a bad day?